"It is impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror. Horror has a face and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your friends. If they are not, then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies.
I remember when I was with special forces.... It seems a thousand centuries ago -- we went into a camp to innoculate the children. We'd left the camp after we'd inoculated the children for Polio and this old man came running after us, And he was crying and he couldn't say....
"We went back there and they had come and hacked off every inoculated arm. There they were in a pile. A pile of. . . little arms. And, I remember, . . . I cried. I wept like some grandmother. I wanted to tear my teeth out. I didn't know what I wanted to do. And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it. I never want to forget. And then I realized, like I was shot.... Like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead. And I thought, my God, the genius of that! The genius, the will to do thatl Perfect and complete. Crystaline. Pure.
"Then I realized they were stronger than we, because they could stand it. These were not monsters, they were men; trained cadres. These men who fought with their hearts, who have families, who have children, who are filled with love, but they have strength. . . to do that.
"If I had ten divisions of these men, then our troubles here would be over very quickly.
"You have to have men who are moral, and at the same time, who are able to utilize their primordial instincts to kill. . . without feeling, without passion, without judgment; - without judgment, because it's judgment that defeats us.
"I worry that my son might not understand what I've tried to be. And if I were to be killed, Willard, I would want someone to go to my home and tell my son everything: everything I did, everything I saw. Because there is nothing I detest more than the stench of. . . lies. And if you understand me, Willard, you will do this for me."
